when someone has feelings its hard to hide them. even as much as you want to be discrete its something uncontrollable. its always the ones you least expect or at the time you dont expect it. sometimes and more often times its better more of a pleasant surprise. i enjoy my pleasant surprises becuase theyre honestly life giving. and i think they make my heart and soul smile all the time each every occurance they can get. honestly i live for the feelings that just spark with no warning then its just something you figure out to control because you cant make go away. i also feel like sometimes it can hurtful because it can come with soem pretty bad reprocutions and its might end up hurting you and it ends up being worse.